Tuesday, 21 August 2012

The night before...

Breeze around.
A girl entered her room to set clothes while doing so she found a book.
She opens and starts to read...
"Rush of many thoughts...How do I know how much this path is right for me.?
How will I know that this man will always stand by me.?
How will I know he will accept me the way i am.?
How do i tell him When i say "Be with me forever i mean forever"
Every girl wants an assurance from her guy that he'll comfort her and try being with her in every walk of life.

How do i know we both are made for each other?
My heart is beating faster and faster.
Unable to sleep. Wanna wake my people hug them and say I love you'll. I don't wanna leave you'll.
A man can never go through this tunnel of emotions...
Since the time I was a kid I grew with a set of people who are my siblings my parents my friends my cousins but at this point of time I'm leaving all this and wil have to start from the scratch of making myself a part of another family which is already built and I have to make space for myself and to build this I need a lot of fuel which is love and concern from my guy which can help me move ahead...
Makes me feel sad about leaving my home sweet home.
Every corner of d house is my home sweet home.

I will miss family time.
I  will miss complaining dad. I will miss dad singing songs when hez happy.
I will miss patafyin (impressing) mom. I will miss mom's care.
I will miss those random fights, walks n hugs with my siblings and friends.
How long will it take to I accept his family like mine?
My family is mine.
They say Love is Blind but I beg to differ I think love has a magnifying glass.
He or she is happy only when thr checklist is full filled.
When I live upto his checklist hez happy with me.
But there's a lot he needs to live up to.
My heart is holding toooo many emotions i can't hold them any longer.
I remember every lil bit of time which was running faster than anyone could imagine.
When my dad asked asked him to sit in his chair.
When mom was all pink when he came to pick me up.
When siblings were waving at me when i was in another car.
All I need is immense strength and assurance that come what may he will be with me.
I knew this day would come but there's so much difference in knowing and accepting.
M scared will he ever say "leave me and go"
Or will he just come back hug and say, where will you go without me.
When m upset can i expect him to understand without me telling anything, the way I understand him?
Will he stand by me and my family like i do?
Will promises be kept?
Will he make sure no matter what i am to society he will let me be me when m with him.
I promise myself i Will be by him.
I Will trust him even if d world doesn't.
I Will support him.
I will adapt to things around.
I Will love n care for him endlessly.

With my family extending i want love to just go beyond their limits and i Will do my bit.
For which he needs to equally stand by me.
All these years anything new i started my family was there for me.
Now My family and my Man are there for me.
So I can rely on them and fall asleep.
Still, I have butterflies.
Hoping and praying for a better future.
Praying God to give lots of strength and happiness to my family..
Gotta sleep mom's in my room..."

The girl reading the book has tears rolling down with a smile.
That li'l girl was reading her sister's personal dairy.
Well this is on the night before girl gets married.
That night a girl will have volumes to talk and express just that words go missing.

P.S- Sab Kuch wahi hain par Kuch kami hain
Teri aahatein nahi hain..


  1. Aaaaahhhh....it made me more heavier within...a phase fr every gal...i luvd it d way u expressed every feel every gesture every tear. ..nthng is permanent..but change is only permanent

    1. Nazia- Thanku so much for visting and commenting.
      True a phase of life evry girl goes through.!

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    1. Somsi- Thank you so much for visting and commenting..:)

  3. My dear Ankitha,
    How touching and moving. I guess every girl goes through these emotions when they have to leave everything that is familiar to them. Love does not differentiate between old and new. Nothing else matters when love is in our midst. Wonderfully told. Nice imagery too. Thank you so much for sharing.

    The Naked Wind

    1. Andy sir- Thank yoou soooo much for dropping down inspite of being busy.:)Thank you so much for appreciating.
      TOtally its difficult but to extent can be solved if love helps.:)

  4. wow, what a touching story, the girl reading about her sister's vulnerability in her diary. i guess every girl feels the apprehension when uncertainty lies ahead, most especially when it comes to love. the only way is to have faith that everything will be okay.

    this was an enjoyable read, ankitha! take care and hope you're having a great weekend! <3 :-)

  5. very touching Ankitha, keep posting such thoughts , very much useful for guys like us n also the guys unmarried.....take care

  6. that was very touchy Ankitha.....

    one can go through lot of thoughts while reading it, specially those girls out here....

    Thanks for sharing.

  7. Good work!!! Well written keeping all the emotions to its truth! :D

  8. Well that was about 4-5 minz well spent ! Life is a roller coaster and all about taking chances - the biggest bet being love/marraige itself, n we can only hope for the best once we think a person is worth taking the risk for ! Well written ! =)

    -Lavanya Manchiraju

  9. Too many questions, too much depth , too many fears n too much anticipation ... Well ... U pretty much covered every emotion ... Very
    Well put across ... Bt my dear sweet child .. It's not that scary after all ... Every phase has its beauty :-)

  10. Touching words dear .... Good work.. !!

  11. ..words beautifully put..a wonderful display of emotions..and the look out for answers that every girl searches..
    ..a beautiful post Ankita..keep writing.. :)