The night before...

Breeze around.
A girl entered her room to set clothes while doing so she found a book.
She opens and starts to read...
"Rush of many thoughts...How do I know how much this path is right for me.?
How will I know that this man will always stand by me.?
How will I know he will accept me the way i am.?
How do i tell him When i say "Be with me forever i mean forever"
Every girl wants an assurance from her guy that he'll comfort her and try being with her in every walk of life.

How do i know we both are made for each other?
My heart is beating faster and faster.
Unable to sleep. Wanna wake my people hug them and say I love you'll. I don't wanna leave you'll.
A man can never go through this tunnel of emotions...
Since the time I was a kid I grew with a set of people who are my siblings my parents my friends my cousins but at this point of time I'm leaving all this and wil have to start from the scratch of making myself a part of another family which is already built and I have to make space for myself and to build this I need a lot of fuel which is love and concern from my guy which can help me move ahead...
Makes me feel sad about leaving my home sweet home.
Every corner of d house is my home sweet home.

I will miss family time.
I  will miss complaining dad. I will miss dad singing songs when hez happy.
I will miss patafyin (impressing) mom. I will miss mom's care.
I will miss those random fights, walks n hugs with my siblings and friends.
How long will it take to I accept his family like mine?
My family is mine.
They say Love is Blind but I beg to differ I think love has a magnifying glass.
He or she is happy only when thr checklist is full filled.
When I live upto his checklist hez happy with me.
But there's a lot he needs to live up to.
My heart is holding toooo many emotions i can't hold them any longer.
I remember every lil bit of time which was running faster than anyone could imagine.
When my dad asked asked him to sit in his chair.
When mom was all pink when he came to pick me up.
When siblings were waving at me when i was in another car.
All I need is immense strength and assurance that come what may he will be with me.
I knew this day would come but there's so much difference in knowing and accepting.
M scared will he ever say "leave me and go"
Or will he just come back hug and say, where will you go without me.
When m upset can i expect him to understand without me telling anything, the way I understand him?
Will he stand by me and my family like i do?
Will promises be kept?
Will he make sure no matter what i am to society he will let me be me when m with him.
I promise myself i Will be by him.
I Will trust him even if d world doesn't.
I Will support him.
I will adapt to things around.
I Will love n care for him endlessly.

With my family extending i want love to just go beyond their limits and i Will do my bit.
For which he needs to equally stand by me.
All these years anything new i started my family was there for me.
Now My family and my Man are there for me.
So I can rely on them and fall asleep.
Still, I have butterflies.
Hoping and praying for a better future.
Praying God to give lots of strength and happiness to my family..
Gotta sleep mom's in my room..."

The girl reading the book has tears rolling down with a smile.
That li'l girl was reading her sister's personal dairy.
Well this is on the night before girl gets married.
That night a girl will have volumes to talk and express just that words go missing.

P.S- Sab Kuch wahi hain par Kuch kami hain
Teri aahatein nahi hain..

Time changes..

Time changes..
Times when you wanna talk and you don't have anyone around.
Times when u wanna stay calm but everybody around.
Times you wanna get drenched in the rain, times u just wanna see rain.
Times when u feel like sleeping and missing out on school or college.
Times you just wanna get up n go to school relive every bit of it.
Times when you wanna go shopping endlessly but you broke.
Times when you have money but nothing makes u feel gud.
Times when you wanna go to a beach n just go sporting.
Times when you just wanna see the waves go up n down.
Times when you laugh widout a reason.
Times when cry widout a reason.
Times when you need a walk to burn ur calories.
Times when you need a walk just to feel gud.
Times when planning something excites.
Times when planning something upsets.
Times when you laugh a lot hide somethin.
Times when you talk less for someone to notice you feeling low.
Times u wanna b independent free like for everything.
Times al u need is dependence.
Times when you don't want anyone to ask "what happened ? R u ok?"
Times when you expect silence to be understood.
Times when you keep waiting to grow in life.
Times when you miss every lil bit of ur childhood.
Times when love care n concern were important.
Times when money is important.
Times when you look upto someone breaks that image in front u.
Times when promises were only the word of assurance.
Times when no longer people know what it stands for.
Times when a single moment can crack u totally.
Times when you hold every bit of your emotion.
Times when innocence is bliss.
Times when ignorance is bliss.
Times when hurting is easier than trusting.

p.s- Few Don't change
*Fairy tales*

What's going on?

Oooh my my. Its been a real long time I blogged... Over a month. Uff! A lot was going around me couldn't really blog. But missed blogging a lot.. more than blogging  I missed reading blogs..:)

Meri yaar ke shaadi thi so was busy all April month. Then my sister's marriage got settled.:):) Sailing a boat of mixed emotions. I shall keep you'll updated with all that in the coming blogs..

Don't know dis time it was very weird for some reason I couldn't really blog. Anything I start I would stop it abruptly. Probably cos I was sailing in a boat of mixed emotions. Or rather still sailing.. Umm..

So what you guys been doing? I gotta catch up a lot blogs.:)

Summer time , yaha par grami ke maare hum log tho pagal hoagaya..:P Its 43 degrees here in Hyderabad. I'm sure abroad people enjoying the climate.:) A few must have got back from their summer visits, a few must be going.

I wanna go somewhere but don't know where. Probably Goa Yes yes! ( Shopping , beaches woow.:) )

Or Bangalore yes yes!( Shopping  , random hang outs :) )

Or any Hill station yes yes ! ( Climate n shopping..:) )

 

Wannnna gooo Jim corbet... (The only place I don't think about shopping ) Yessssss yessss..!! Wooow what a place to goo.. Have u guys been there.?? It's an amazing place. Must gooo...

Radio mein Pyar do Pyar lo , Kitne bhi tu karle sitam songs are coming I like these songs.:) Arrey ya haa malum ek tho dost shaadi karke ahemdabad gayi. Aur meri behan ke shaadi ke preprations..:) shaadi ke liye time hain phir bhi..:)

Wannna eat Chicken biryaniii with butter chicken..:) Wanna eat panii puriiii no meetha..:P Wanna eat Candy floss..:P :P Mein pagal hogayi hu...

Current songs I'm in love with: (Try and listen )

1. Pani da rang , Marjaiyan - Vicky Donor
2. Pareshaan (actually all tracks)- Ishaqzaade
3. Khudayaa , Bharat mata ki - Shanghai
4. Thehree si zindagi - London Paris Newyork

I saw Vicky donor movie I really liked it a lot, don't know what was so good but I totally enjoyed. Ayushman was at his best..:) I saw Ishaqzaade as well and liked it, both the lead actors were good. I saw Gabbar singh after long good entertainment.:)

Heeeyyy..:):) KKR to the finalsss wooohhoooo! Yea Srk..:) Korbo lorbo jeetbo re..:)

Current songs playing on my playlist :

• Khudayaa.
• Pal pal dil ke pass.
• Ae kash ke hum.
• Naadan Parindey.
• Ajeeb dastan hain ye.
• Kuch kaas hain.

Life is crazy.:)

I usually don't talk about news in true sense but this freaked just few mins back I got to know so I wanna share.

Hike in petrol prices again.. Uuuff. What's going on. Please on public requests "Hike salaries" Public requests reminds me of  “Satyamev Jayate”

Wooow I don’t have words to express what impression does it leave to me. Firstly congratulations to everybody who supported in helping them to pass a bill against Child sexual abuse. I appreciate every member who's the main root cause for a show which is totally real. I appreciate every member who dares to share their problem in front of the complete world.*Bows down*

I donno who has their own profit motto but ultimately they are doing something good to the society and it should be considered. I loved every episode they showed by far like icing on the cake every episode ke baad those songs..

Cheers to Ram sampath and team. O ri chiraiya , Mujhe kya bechega rupiaya, Hauley hauley!

A looot random spoken, feels fresh to be talking all this. I shall keep posting.. Sorry for the irregular blogging. I shall keep in frequent touch hereafter.:) So stay connected!

P.S - I must mention the reason I could manage to blog is the way my sister Harshi and my friend Harsha boosted me so much that I was left with no option but write..:) Hugs!

Get along with my madness!

I'm just gonna talk a lot random. :P Don’t wonder, "Kaha se kaha gayi hain ye ladki"

So how many of y'all fasted for Shivrathri. *Applause for whoever did* I really wonder how can you fast for a day? That’s so good actually! How I wish I could fast..

Donno the moment I decide not to eat, I feel like eating. And I have such lovely friends who keep reminding me about cakes and chocolates, so it’s very obvious na. :) 

With a glass of tea in my hand I’m acting like a business tycoon thinking what to write. :P Now tycoon reminds me of this game I play - Roller coaster tycoon. It’s sooo much fun. :) It even reminds me of Ice climber I would play it on TV. How many of you all miss it?

In my background ‘Sadda haq’ song is playing. I like these lines - "Matlab ki tum sabka mujhpe, Mujhse bhi zyaada Haaaaaaaq hain" I feel like screaming Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.!

I have been listening to a few pop album songs. It totally makes me feel so good. Sing it along "Mein sundar na sahi , magar chehra mera kuch bura nahi, dil sacha hain mera dekho tho hain khud pe pura yakeen Banungi mein Miss India" And a few more like - Ab ke baras, raat shabnami etc.. :p

Now I feel like eating a chocolate pastry! Hmmm.. Oh my god THERE ARE a few people who hate chocolate :-o

Have you ever tried smiling for no reason it is really funny you should try! Like SRK says 1 2 3 eeee..:P 

During the recent Filmfare awards Srk was totally a treat to watch. Guess what he has 14 Filmfare awards :) Thank you thank you..:) :)

These days I’m busy. Honestly speaking even I don’t know what keeps me busy. I’m sure my randomness is getting you guys crazy!

How I wish it suddenly starts raining. '''''''''''' Ek ladki bheegi bhagi si, soti raaton main jaagi si… J I love the smell of earth before it starts raining. I would go get drenched and play songs like - Let the rain come down and wash away your tears. i.e., New day song by Celine Dion.

Anyways thanks guys for sparing my madness :P

Dil o mein tum apni betabiyan leke chal rahe ho

Toh Zinda ho tum !

nazar mein khwaabon ki bijiliyan leke chal rahe ho

Toh zinda ho tum!

P.S - Just live the way you want, talk what you wish to. If people are there to listen tell them warna you are no less company for yourself. :) :) Keep smiling. :D

An unsent letter

Meeerrrrrryyyy Christmaaassss! :) :) Ho Ho Ho.!!

Jingle bells Jingle bells Jingle all the way :)

No matter how old you are or who you are or where you stay, everyone loves to celebrate Christmas. It’s the day when Jesus Christ was born. It’s worth all the celebrations though.

Joy to the world! The Lord has come. :) Joy to the world! The Lord has come. Let earth receive her King! Let every heart prepare a room for him and heaven and nature sing.

All those Christmas Carols, wow the feel all around the world is amazing!

It is celebrated all around the world but especially in the western countries, they celebrate in an awesome way! During this season I always wish I was born somewhere near the North Pole. :P

Santa Claus is coming to town. :):)

Now the reason is very obvious "I’m a good girl" AND Santa says: Be good throughout the year and you will get what you want.

A small incident I wanna share:

Years back when I was watching Cartoon Network an ad flashed. It says write your letter to Santa and he will reply. :):) Well! The moment of joy yeaaah!

I was too young so obviously I didn’t know my residential address. I wrote a biiig letter. I don’t even remember what I wrote. I got up early in the night and I didn’t tell anyone at my place. I was not willing to ask them the address. Then I checked out some postal letters and wrote my address. I was too happy thinking now my wishes will be fulfilled. That night I slept and next morning my letter went missing. :(

My "unsent letter". I was upset for a long time and later I got to know that my sisters flicked it. :P

This season spreads bliss and love all around. :) The belief that Santa is there and he will gift you is just within. :) I always had sleepless nights during Christmas time thinking Santa might just come now and now! Hoping he might come anytime. Aaaahhh! The hardest but my favorite part was waiting for Santa to surprise me.

As I grew I got to know there is Santa but not just in the North Pole but everywhere around. That everyone around us is a Santa in their own way. J Those who keeps a check of what you want and those who love you. :) This is little upsetting that the real Santa doesn’t come. Still I wanna believe that someday he will come dashing through the snow. :):):)

The simple child like belief still makes me write letters to him every year for Christmas on this site: http://emailsanta.com/email_santa.asp

The best part is an instant reply which makes me Woooohooo even today :) I just sent him my wishes and you can do so as well. You never know he might come down just for you. There is no harm in believing that Santa Claus is coming to town. :):) Now that everything around has become expensive it might take Santa some time to get my gifts. :)

Everybody reading this, I’m sure you will agree that it has nothing to do with age. So just write your wishes on that site. It makes me Happy and I’m hoping the same at your end.

Lots of love,

Meeeeeeeerrrrrryyyyyy Christmass...

Now my letters are posted and so I’m happy. :):)

Write all your wishes and worries. I will pray and hope that all your wishes should come true and all your worries should disappear. :)

P.S: Write your letters. And zzzzz sleep as Santa is watching you :) <3 <3

The magic you can create

Magic, you can do.

Suddenly there is this moment where in someone feels too hard inside. No matter how much they try, that feeling cannot be expressed. But it could be evident only if seen within, which is humanly impossible. (I know that. :P )

That’s when you can do "MAGIC" Guess, how? Keep guessing.

Not shopping, a little more guessing please.

No, not watching a movie either.

Hmm...

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which bursts the clouds, and then there is a heavy pour of tears.

It is called,

"Hug" Arey yaar Jadoo ki  jhappi!

Hug is a way of saying ‘Hello’. It also has a way to show appreciation to another for any reason. It can be a form of sympathy and at times a congratulatory one. So basically they are magic wands at free of cost. "Free hugs". Kanjoos mat bano yar. ;)

Whenever you feel anyone is in need of some support, just give a warm hug to them! When in need you will get it. Now let us do something. Recollect these beautiful hugs in your life while reading through the following points. I bet you will smile. :)

• Birthday hugs in celebration of your life and existence :) (Haapppyy Birthday with a huuuggg)

• Random hugs Jab pyaar aye tab. (What’s up! with a hug)

• Hugs when you needed them the most and given unexpectedly. These are the best, no? :) (Saying 'Kya hua yaar, what’s with that face?' with a hug)

• Awaited hugs (aaah I wish I could hug SRK :))

• A friend whom you meet daily and still you need a hug from them.

• When someone is leaving, that hug which indicates assurance and which can build trust and confidence! :) :)

Hugs are Magical! Aren’t they?

 

PS: Now please do not misuse this beautiful feeling.

More than three mistakes made me a Graduate!

I am a graduate. It makes me feel amazing!

A lot of process happened in being me graduate :P

 

Just like many other students, I hated studying or even going to school. But at least at one point people will  adapt to it but, I would crib about it till my high school. 

I have two elder sisters, so it is quite obvious that they would help me in studying. My elder sister would be like my caretaker and would teach me all the subjects. My second sister was good at studies and I never liked that :P Even if she corrected me I wouldn’t take it. LOL!. I always underrated myself then but they always believed I would be able to do it. I would love to thank them for that. :)

Today I might be smiling or laughing about it, but at that time it was like a terror to me.

My way of preparation:

Initial days as My mom would teach ABC's n 123 so I have studied good till my mid-school. As subjects got complicated my marks also became complicated. Each time I would get the progress card I would nearly wet my pants to show it to mom. But would manage it after many such sessions which can’t be mentioned here for obvious reasons :P

Later my elder sister took up my responsibility!

I hated Telugu subject and would never score good in it. Telugu being my First language I had to score good. Grrr

My sister would set a question paper which I had to answer within the given time. [3hrs] So even after preparing for it I hardly use to remember anything. It was totally like short term memory loss :P LOL! Now, I am laughing while writing this. God knows what I would write, and my sister would start correcting it :P If any answer had "more than three mistakes" I had to redo it.

I would write decently good but somehow every answer would have more than three mistakes!

So imagine my plight as I would write it again and again. I would cry and plead that I will not repeat the same in the exam. But she would never listen. She would even hit me :P [I know my sister is reading this and will say anki I would equally feel bad..I know I know..:)]

Whole day would pass in that room but I would never complete my exam. I would stay up all night studying. But never thought that even my sister is staying up for me.

Ooooh then all those preparations would go on and on.

At last exams started and also got done. I was freaking out on the day of results. Then the results would come in Newspaper, and after a lot of search, suddenly my sister found my number ******(80%) Aaaah  what a moment of happiness :)

As I entered college for Intermediate (10+2) I have realized that I am trusted which I wanted to live up to. Studying with friends over phones and all was fun so two years

Masti + studying = cleared my inter..:)

Then Degree, I had equal number of practical and theory papers.

I would enjoy theory more than practical as I was from civics background. But again I had no option! The limit was when OU (Osmania University) decided that 70% of scores would be given for external exams and 30% for practicals.

I had to slog day and night, frankly speaking no, my second sister would write 90% of my projects. So again things were taken care by my sister. Though I would never listen to her but ultimately she’s been a part of me being a grad. She would teach me all the practical papers. My friends and me would do combine studies through day and night. There were few friends who helped me out of the way for practical exams.

All three years passed by with: Masti+cribbing+projects+outings in the name of projects..:)

With all that today I am finally a Graduate. Isn't it awesome. A big thanks for all of them. :):) Who have been a reason for me being a graduate! At times silent support has also been amazingly encouraging. Also for believing in me more than I did.

And I believe in me today!