The night before...

Breeze around.
A girl entered her room to set clothes while doing so she found a book.
She opens and starts to read...
"Rush of many thoughts...How do I know how much this path is right for me.?
How will I know that this man will always stand by me.?
How will I know he will accept me the way i am.?
How do i tell him When i say "Be with me forever i mean forever"
Every girl wants an assurance from her guy that he'll comfort her and try being with her in every walk of life.

How do i know we both are made for each other?
My heart is beating faster and faster.
Unable to sleep. Wanna wake my people hug them and say I love you'll. I don't wanna leave you'll.
A man can never go through this tunnel of emotions...
Since the time I was a kid I grew with a set of people who are my siblings my parents my friends my cousins but at this point of time I'm leaving all this and wil have to start from the scratch of making myself a part of another family which is already built and I have to make space for myself and to build this I need a lot of fuel which is love and concern from my guy which can help me move ahead...
Makes me feel sad about leaving my home sweet home.
Every corner of d house is my home sweet home.

I will miss family time.
I  will miss complaining dad. I will miss dad singing songs when hez happy.
I will miss patafyin (impressing) mom. I will miss mom's care.
I will miss those random fights, walks n hugs with my siblings and friends.
How long will it take to I accept his family like mine?
My family is mine.
They say Love is Blind but I beg to differ I think love has a magnifying glass.
He or she is happy only when thr checklist is full filled.
When I live upto his checklist hez happy with me.
But there's a lot he needs to live up to.
My heart is holding toooo many emotions i can't hold them any longer.
I remember every lil bit of time which was running faster than anyone could imagine.
When my dad asked asked him to sit in his chair.
When mom was all pink when he came to pick me up.
When siblings were waving at me when i was in another car.
All I need is immense strength and assurance that come what may he will be with me.
I knew this day would come but there's so much difference in knowing and accepting.
M scared will he ever say "leave me and go"
Or will he just come back hug and say, where will you go without me.
When m upset can i expect him to understand without me telling anything, the way I understand him?
Will he stand by me and my family like i do?
Will promises be kept?
Will he make sure no matter what i am to society he will let me be me when m with him.
I promise myself i Will be by him.
I Will trust him even if d world doesn't.
I Will support him.
I will adapt to things around.
I Will love n care for him endlessly.

With my family extending i want love to just go beyond their limits and i Will do my bit.
For which he needs to equally stand by me.
All these years anything new i started my family was there for me.
Now My family and my Man are there for me.
So I can rely on them and fall asleep.
Still, I have butterflies.
Hoping and praying for a better future.
Praying God to give lots of strength and happiness to my family..
Gotta sleep mom's in my room..."

The girl reading the book has tears rolling down with a smile.
That li'l girl was reading her sister's personal dairy.
Well this is on the night before girl gets married.
That night a girl will have volumes to talk and express just that words go missing.

P.S- Sab Kuch wahi hain par Kuch kami hain
Teri aahatein nahi hain..

Seasons of my life

Helllooo! :)

It’s totally like a flashback :) I’m a grown up now :) That’s exactly what I always wanted to be when I was young. All the while I would think when will I grow old, when will I go to college.

Here it is… 

But no I want to get back to my childhood now! There was too much innocence and too much of masti.. Anything mischief you do, just one innocent expression and the issue is done.

Wo bhi kya din the..:) Kuch bhi karo sab maaf hain.. aur ab sirf holi pe khete hain. Holi bura na mano..:P

 

It is a story when I was too young. Then the summer time was much awaited than birthdays. :) I lived in a joint family when I was young. It was a huge family and my dad had 8 siblings. :) Imagine all of them would come home with their kids.

I remember those days would start with all mommies giving us glasses of milk and tell - "If you drink milk you will become a strong girl" But still we wouldn't drink then would come their magic wand "If you want to become like your dad then drink" then one gulp and its all inside..:) I miss them all!

Playing caroms like national players and fighting over the fact others took the Rani (the red coin). Then having yummy meals with all the possible imaginative stories. :P If I would waste food then my granny would say many stories to me like - "On every grain of rice ram ram karke it will be written" I would be like where it is I can’t see. :P

Now comes something that I miss the most. During evening time we used to play outdoor games like hide and seek running around trees. What an experience it was! The breezy air from so many trees used to make our experience even more lovely and pleasant. Also, we used to fight for our turn to water all the plants in the garden. Watering the plants oh my god! That would be like first come first serve. :)

The fights of the day would start there. :) How I wish I could get back those days! All of us would sit down and relish basket full of mangoes. And the maids would water the complete balcony :)

All of us would choose our selective mangoes, wash them and just hooooooggg. :) We all would play 5 stones, pallanguzhi, aaaw! I miss all of them.

Trying to drape mom's saree and look at the mirror feeling good. :) I know every girl does that. No matter how pathetic I used to drape, still my mum would say ‘Manchiga undi’. Which means it’s looking good. :)

During summer vacation my grand mom, mom and all her co-sisters would prepare yummy mango pickle in large quantities and after clearing the pickle into any jar, my granny would take plate full of rice mix ghee and pickle and feed all we kids sitting there. Ah nostalgia!

Sudden summer rains ohh my my we would get drenched totally and prepare paper boats and leave them and watch them till the end!

We had joy we had sun we had seasons in the sun. But the wine and the song like the seasons have all gone!

Dil ke kareeb kuch aise lamhe hain

jis ki soch bhi labon par hasi lati hain..

Aise kuch lamhe hain bachpan ki..

  

P.S- Try randomness of being a kid again :):) Make sure you have someone in your life with whom you can still be a kid. :)